Today is a day that is something but i don't know what is the something. Weird Isn't it? A day that is tiring due to moody. I can't answer because i really got a lot of WH in my mind.

I will try to phrase my words, sentences or comments... Before I get started, i make myself comfortable and relaxing... Lighting up my Lampe Berger (i really love this product, is really a beautiful invention but take away the price tag) and having a can of Coke Light with a dim lamp. The feeling of comfort is Gorgeous :) This what i call, Keep Living the Feel Good Life!

2345HRS: Let me get started now before i finish this late.

By obvious for lately, i felt that i have lost confidence, faith and feeling for myself. I used to feel Confident and "happy-go-lucky" on the outside, but this time I really felt insecure, pessimistic person deep inside now.

I don't feel like anything at all at this moment, maybe this is a feeling before a person give up on themself and started to screw deep down over their life. Over the weekend for the past few weeks, i just lying on my bed and rethink by myself. That moment if you were beside me, i bet if you kick my butt and i won't be even shaking as well. What is in my mind is just plain empty.

Throughout the year, The moment i started to know and found the feeling that what i want. I try hard, work hard and think hard. Is quite a big disappointment for myself because till date, i remain at the same location with similar co-ordinate that having no status of improvement. Is a shame that i am degrading deep inside.

I believe in Feeling and Faith in every sense. If i do have the feeling, i can do a lot of things. If i feel that is a faith in the feeling, i will do wonders. But when the moment, i felt that i have lost all in my feeling. I have nothing left, just a big fat ZERO in my inventory.

Hence, i told that i have a chance i will say if i am able.

Definition of Life?? What is Life??
- Source from Wikipedia : Life is a condition that distinguishes organisms from inorganic objects and dead organisms, being manifested by growth through metabolism, reproduction, and the power of adaptation to environment through changes originating internally. ...

Is it true that life having the power of adaptation? Be frank, i can't. May be i am too emotional person, as people says that individual that drive with feeling, is always a emotional person. As a emotional beings, i am always having mood swing. Fool isn't?

No matter how, I must be strong and carry on, cause i know... I don't belong to all this. I will find my way throught night and day, cause i know i can't remain this anymore. Time have bring me down, and time have break my heart. I tried very hard, trying to step up to get close. But i am always get turn down and never get near before.

I am sure beyond the door theres peace, when i step out i know there will be no more teardrops in heaven. Whatever in Life, please cherish and be joyful. I won't be too hard to myself, i won't be think too much and i will rest. Because I don't know how to be optimistic anymore and i am worrying too much in myself.

Lastly, I have been relying on a lot of my mates during my hard-time and bad-time. I would take this opportunity to thank you and I appreciate it. If i did anything that i hurt your feeling or you disliking. I am sincerely hoping you will accept my apologise. So, do reply my SMSes or Emailes or Msges ok? Don't keep me too far, because i will always stand by your wings. But I am a slow learner, please bear with me (always, or at least some times??). I hope my spirits will stay here and fight for everyone.

0205HRS: Cheers mate. Rgds/ET

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